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[21 Jul 2008|03:48am] bananamilk The Persepolis of the Sichuan Earthquake. Interview with the artist, Coco Wang. I can't not cry reading these. My friend Amy just got back from an incredible trip into China and Tibet and is staying with me on my floor for a few days. We stayed up until 6 am talking and I had work at 10. post comment

[13 Jul 2008|05:36pm] chelzabellz So I dated Chris for about a month. Everything was going well and I thought we had something good, the only thing that bothered me is that he was ALL about himself. I'm the exact same way, I like to be in control and he did as well. I sucked it up and gave it a try. Last weekend, 4th of July, he took something that someone said about a guy out of hand and blew up at me, he also went and visited two different girls the week before, one I knew about, the other I didn't. I didn't take him back and told him I wanted to take things slow. We talked and stuff throughout the week and he came over. I just didn't feel that it was going to work, I mean, I just kept replaying the night over and over in my head. He kept saying "fuck you" and calling me a "bitch." I don't think any girl should ever be treated like that, even though he was drunk, it still was very uncalled for. I finally told him today I didn't know when I was going to be able to trust him again, if ever. He said he wanted to work on it, but I told him no. I just can't. I don't know, it's like... I don't even care. I don't know why. I care about myself a lot right now, and only about myself. I seriously sat at home last week and didn't go out at all. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I suppose I just need time for me. I need to figure out what I want in life again, again, because Jeremy and I got back together and I rushed into something so quick. I know why... I'm scared of being alone. This week proved to me, that I'm okay being alone. I'm fine with only caring about myself and when the time comes to care about someone else it will be right... Chris and I didn't feel right. It was fun... I needed fun, but it also made me realize that life isn't always about fun. There's a time and a place for that and growing up you realize how serious things really are. How serious your words and actions can actually be. I need to find someone when I'm ready. And I'm not. 5 comments|post comment

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